Audie

It’s been nearly 3 weeks since I lost you.

The house just isn’t the same. I still instinctively look for you when I enter a room as the last year with you taught us to get in as many ear scratches and sloppy kisses as we could.

I miss your excited bark and that happy little trot you did to greet us every time we came home.

It didn’t matter if we were only gone 10 minutes or that it was only your dad coming home from work.

Every time he came home.

I miss seeing you sit in the sun, stubbornly refusing to come inside because you simply hadn’t had enough of it’s warmth.

I miss the way you’d spin in circles when you were playing, sneezing and carrying on.

So silly.

The quiet times when we’d just sit together.

But mostly I just miss you.

Your dad won’t say much but he misses you too.

As do your siblings.

This was the first photo I ever saw of you.

You were so tiny.

Bringing you home, we had no idea what we were in for. You were a ball of energy!

Since then, you had so many adventures. From the beaches of Oahu, to Nebraska, to North Carolina, to Tennesee.

You thought everyone should be your friend. And almost everyone was.

Playing in the mud with your favorite Maddie and Charlie

There was always plenty of time for sleep and snuggles too.

That time you had an allergic reaction to your shots and looked like a sharpei.

Car rides were never your favorite, but Indie made it easier.

You weren’t sure of Little Man, but you knew he was yours.

One of the last selfies. The cancer was really taking its toll.

I hope you knew how much I loved you. It absolutely broke my heart to have to lose you. If I could have saved you, I would have without hesitation. It was the hardest decision I’ve ever made.

You had such a life, my nugget. And I’m forever thankful to have been your mama. I can’t wait to see you on the other side.