…just some things on my mind.

The world is a crazy place and my brain is buzzing on overdrive these days.

Firstly, let me say that I don’t normally get deeply into politics. I’m old school in my belief that one should not discuss politics in polite conversation. However, my thoughts are flooded with this unfolding drama.

I cannot believe Trump is a legitimate candidate in the presidential race.  What scares me the most is so many veterans are supporting this racist bigot. While I understand the appeal of a candidate who has no political ties, I cannot understand how any rational human being can support this man. He is detrimental to forward thinking. His views on minorities and women are deplorable. I honestly thought his candidacy was a joke. Sadly, some of my fellow Americans are swayed by his blunt words. I can only hope we as a country wake up before this clown takes over.

I won’t go into more detail as the amount of ignorance makes me physically ill.

Secondly, on a more personal note, I have come across a number of acquaintances and friends who are unexpectedly pregnant as of late.  While I want to be happy for them and get excited for them, I can’t help but feel that ugly green monster coming out.  These women have more than one child already (and some have children they have absolutely no control over). Most were completely accidental and some have been married for all of 10 months.  As a woman who wants nothing more than to be a mom, I can’t help but feel that jealousy monster rearing its ugly head. Since my family has a history of trouble getting pregnant and staying pregnant, I can only assume that my fate will be similar. Thus, I find it especially hard that some of these women (those that have multiple children on accident) are so quick to complain about how stressful this change is.  I would give my left leg to feel that “stress”!  I am ever more jealous of those that have been married for far less time than I have who are ready to pop within the first year of marriage. While these instances are complete jealousy speaking, I can’t help but want something similar. I want to be a mommy so badly, I find it completely unfair how easily these newly weds procreate. The lifestyle my husband and I live requires us to think a little more rationally about trying for a baby. Hawaii is expensive for us, let alone trying to bring a child into the world here. We have made the conscious decision not to have a baby here, but as our time is getting shorter on this island, the fever is raging again. Sometimes, however, I wish we were a bit more reckless and tried a little harder.  We discussed the possibility not long after moving here, but quickly reasoned against it. I can only hope that this next chapter brings us a two-legged kiddo to journey with us.

Finally, again on a personal note, I have been binging on the HGTV show Fixer Upper.  Again, with the military life, we will be renting for the foreseeable future (at least 7 more years come March). Thus, we can’t really make any place with live “ours”. While we have done our best with the current house we are in (what with floor rugs and new bedding), it’s still the same walls and someone else’s appliances. I am getting the itch to put down some roots.  Perhaps it comes from a childhood of moving place to place, but I can’t wait to decorate my own place with furniture that matches, pictures on the walls (we can’t put holes in the wall, per our current leasing agreement), and my own little garden oasis. I just can’t wait to make a house our relatively permanent home–at least one that we won’t leave every 3 or so years.

As I said, this post wasn’t really about the adventure we are on, but more of a pulse check of the way the world is running in our neck of the woods these days.

On a more lighthearted note, happy National Love Your Pet Day! I have four of the most wonderful furbutts I could ask for. They really do complete us.

So, until next time!

Cheers!

–A. xoxo